Things just got real

So I have been doing this game for roughly 5 years.  I have subbed in various school districts: stepping in when the teacher is gone.  I have done everything from Autoshop at the high school to kindergarten art.  I look at subbing as an adventure and variety is the spice of life (so my mom taught me).  I have been the sub and almost 4 years ago I realized that I needed more work especially when summer rolls around and I don't have as frequent subbing available to me.  I went and gathered applications as well as did some online stuff.  I received a phone call less than a week later and was hired at a big box retail store. I won't say names.  I was a killer employee.  I put my customers first and exercised that "they are always right" even if they weren't mantra.  Well I played that game for almost 5 years and it went fine and I was good.  I made my bills and had a little to have fun like the occasional date night with my husband.

Well in the last year I gained a department head.  On the outside they were all saccharine sweet like a grandparent or a mythical character but that was all it was.  I was female and I was not on his good list or good side by any means.  I started using words that should may have not.  Words like "fair workplace" "human resources manager" "awareline." Long story-short I know longer work there.

Second job woes

Working everyday of the week no matter if it is 8 or 14 hrs a day is wearing me down.  I would love to have a more stable routine and not fear the bill collectors every month but alas.  So goes life.  I will be working job #2 again tonight.

Rough draft...Rough Start.

Looking at the beginning of the 4th week of school and currently scrounging for sub jobs like some scavenger. Praying for good things this year. Still looking for those silver linings

The perils of rejection

Question.  What's the trick? 3 years. 3 years of subbing.  More interviews then I can count: multiples in some school districts.  I won't deny I find negative thoughts seeping into my day.  I find the positive, the silver linings, those warm fuzzies when I get to sub in my favorite places. I go to bed knowing someday one day I will get my dream.

Bi-Polar days

The attitudes received as a sub are as manic as Minnesota Winter Weather.  One day I am all cool and they are happy to see me and after almost a week the "new car appeal" wears off and they want me gone.  Even though I have been here the better part of the school year and know what's going on.

After yesterday's catty girl attitudes I came to school knowing I wasn't going to be on anyone's christmas card list.  I am beginning to see that the students aren't going to accomplish all the work that the teacher wanted them to do.  2 days left and all I can say is

Game on

Bloody Valentine's Day

A day like today brought out the haters, lovers, and general holiday abstainers.  I for one didn't realize how extreme it would be in the public school setting.  Boy was I wrong.

You could cut the tension in the classroom with a knife.  Girls were either all in love or they were at each other's throat over something as trivial as an energy drink.  Guys were just lucky if they remembered it was a holiday. I, on the other hand, was surprised that the almost adult aged students thought they should have some sort of valentine's party I thought that ended when you got to high school.

Maniac Mondays

Back to the ALC for the rest of the week.  I started out with direct opposition from a student that hasn't been here for a while.  A student that has stated their dislike of me in particular and holds nothing back.  I deal with it all and still come out with a smile on my face.  I actually very much like it here.  I never thought I would understand the ALC...at one time I was actually scared of the establishment.  After multiple sub times I see the value.  I enjoy the kids and I come back as much as possible.  Well well day 1 of the week.  I guess just keep smiling.